It's been a while since I posted anything on this blog. Some of you may have noticed I've been quiet on twitter and flickr as well. For those of you who missed
my christmas card, sorry- hope you all had a good christmas and I wish you a happy new year with many good things to come!
My holidays were quiet and peaceful. I got this super cute alessi 'the hugging tree'. Nope, no photo gear :)
So, what have I been up to? Well, for one, I've been pondering what to do and where to go with my photography. Commercially, my work has been steady, I've been doing many nice projects and there's more to come, so I can't complain there, and I'm still focussed on what I want and where I'm going, so all's good.
On a more personal level I'm not all that satisfied. After my 365 ended last year, I was insanely busy and there wasn't a lot of time left to work on my personal projects. I've been working with many different cameras as well, so I pretty much lost all direction.
My fun in taking pictures with the iPhone was kind of gone, too. The whole community madness and people deciding what's good, which apps to use and not use and whatnot was annoying me so much I stopped paying attention. I stopped enjoying my own iPhoneography in the process- which mostly was a result of not having enough time for it.
So.. when I looked back on what I did in 2010, I had to admit the nagging feeling of 'not doing enough' that was bugging me in the last month was justified. I lost my focus on my autonomous work. I don't know if you've seen
this graph before, but I got stuck in the 'dammit, I suck' hole. (btw, I think I skipped the hdr hole, I never liked overcooked hdr photos to begin with. Besides that it's a pretty accurate graph. Or maybe- oh the horror!- that hole has yet to come. Who knows.) To be honest going for that blue dotted line wouldn't be a good thing, I think, but still.
Anyway.
I was going to start another iPhone365 on january 1st, but this time, I wanted the images to have more meaning. Not just pretty pictures. Of course I was being too hard on myself yet again, as this is quite something to accomplish each day for a whole year.. so I gave up quickly, and I'm still not sure if I'll start the 365 with a more 'normal' attitude (as if that were possible for the perfectionist in me..) or if I'll start something else entirely.
What I did decide is that I am really done with wanting to keep up- on twitter, flickr, facebook, here, anywhere. I can't keep up with everything, do commercial work, focus on my own projects ànd have some sort of life all at the same time. So I'm skipping the things that distract too much. I don't do the 'good intentions' thing whenever a new year starts. It just so happened to be one of those 'time to reflect' moments I guess.
I'll be focussing on working with just one of my analog cameras for a while too, I think. Without a specific target, just to clear my head and get back on track.
For now, I will maybe post here or on flickr every once in a while. Don't expect anything though- if you wish to contact me about anything, don't hesitate to do so, I do keep up with my emails whenever I can ;)
